Hi my names Tory, i wanted to thank EVERYONE in these forums. In more recent months I've been stuck to my couch as im not able to go up my stairs easily at all. (Tore my labrum on last fall march 28th) .
Your forums have educated me greatly and now doctors and specialists don't write me off I've noticed since i probably fit a drug seekers profile apperance wise (thats what I've concluded). (Im heavily tatted) but again i hate stereotypes.As a career i played semi-professional football to support my family & did powerlifting events across the country.THAT WAS MY JOB. So because of many tattoos (most all D lineman have them at that level) i felt discrimination. Anyways its been a long and tough road since nov 13th 2011.Including 1 Pretty long hospital stay which ruled out alot of how i said i felt *just not how i was viewed*.
Ever since this whole thing began ive been in major***distress and depression with a great deal of emotional agony. I've never had any of these problems before (more than pain) and it has ruined my life at such a young age. My dreams are plauqed with these problems AND THATS IF I SLEEP. Every aspect of my life has changed into a negative . I've further injured myself from simple things like stairs because i just couldn't fathom the fact.enough for now i just got some EXCITEMENT my eyes feel heavy as an indication that i may sleep maybe? Sorry to randomly cut it short but i don't control when i sleep anymore. Its been 57 straight hours before my last 5 hour nap.
If none of this made any sense i blame my sleep issues for that as it messes with my mind. I'll countinue when i wake up. Trust me i have alot to say as im not social anymore & got sick and tired of the pity parts at my house. I live reclusive now. Till next time *enjoy the hours until we speak again/as pain free as possible.
I try to stay positive, some days just kick me down.