Been gone a long time, dont know if anyone remembers me oh well lol. My life turned inside out and nuked beyond recognition. My hubby abandoned me after 20 yrs of marriage. Said I was a burden, turned off because I gained weight (effing Lyrica!!!!) Just when I was making strides after having pain pump put in. At least I'm not bedridden like I almost was, I tolerate sitting, standing, driving, and walking better than back then. I even dropped the weight. A little too late. Who will want me with my issues? Am I doomed to be alone forever? I live for my kids now and am trying hard to reinvent myself. Not getting child support so I've been looking for something I can do, but prospects are low because I been out of work force for years and get SSDI & SSI. I sang praises about my hubby here when he was good to me. He related to my back problems bc he also blew out disc but he recovered on his own mostly. I dont get it, I would rub his back all the time. When I needed mine done it was very brisk or I got barked at for keeping him awake. Anyway ladies never get comfy, just when you think things are ok or manageable then the bottom drops out. At least that what happened to me.