Hello! I just found this website, my name is Alex and i am 23 years old. In january of 2006 i was in a severe snowboarding accident. Injuries i suffered are open right tib/fib break, thigh muscle ripped from right thigh, fractured right hip, ruptured my spleen, lacerated my kidney, broke some ribs, collapsed both lungs, fractured skull, and 6 fractured vertabrea in my upper back and neck. I guess the doctors did tell my parents that they were not sure of all of the injuries i incurred because of how many different injuries i had head to toe.
So that was six and a half years ago... As of now, i suffer in excruciating the majority of the day every day. I no longer remember what it is like to wake up in the morning and not be in excruciating pain. So much pain that i am barely able to stand or sit, i am forced to bend foward and bear most of my weight on my stomach and rock back and forth. Throughout the day it does not get much better. The worst part is even trying to get in bed to relax does not help whatsoever. It seems the longer a stay still the more intense the pain becomes. I regularly do not sleep more than3-4 hours a night. Some nights i am unable to sleep untill i can absolutely not stay up any longer. The being unable to sleep has been going on for about three months now. It is slowly driving me crazy because there is nothing i can do to make the pain bearable. It feels like there are 5 small screwdrivers in my back and every 10-15 someone grabs each one and gives them a good twist. It is constant and there arent times it is significantly better. However it is significantly worse when it rains or snows. Also my left shoulder blade hurts and feels like it might fall out of its socket. I was never told i did and damage to my left shoulder. My leg dose bother me occasionally but it dosnt compare to my back and neck. My neck is always very sore awsell, often i have to hold my head between my legs or constantly look at the ground when i walk or sit. Obviously hanging my head all the time makes me feel terrible about myself. I am the type of person who works his ass off, is willing to help for nothing in return, go out and be active. I love outdoos i kayak and weekly i bike 20-30 miles. I hate having to hang my head all the time. I am proud of who i am and do not like not feeling like myself all of the time. I do not walk and run as much as i can because walking alone is painful and drains me of energy. I am 6ft 1" and athletic build, doctors have not found a reason for all the pain. I am flexible, stong, and fairly healthy as far as diet. My neck feels just to weak to hold up my head all the time or even half the time. Also on my lower right side of stomach i feel like an organ has constant uncomfortable pressure on it. Also, when my leg broke they had to put a plate in, so i now have a shorter right leg. While i was 5months bed ridden after my accident i grew about 6 inches. In that time i did very little standing or sitting. Also my back spasms ALL OF THE TIME, when i try to sleep at night the bed shakes lightly all the time. I am sorry for such a long post. I am desperate for help, i just do not know what to do anymore. It makes life so daunting and miserable, I am only 23 and i know my pain will just keep getting worse. It is so incredibly hard to go on when i do not see any relife in my future. I never have energy to go out for more than 2 hours. I am at a loss. There are times i want to drop to my knees and cry.
Hardest thing is that i got addicted to pain killers after my accident and did not realize how seriously addictive and bad they are for you. But the only thing that helps is narcotics. I have been through withdraw many times and stopped usine. But i feel i have no other option. I can take three flexeril at once and still not be able to sleep, and does nothing for pain. Where i live (frederick, Maryland) i am unable to get anything other than motrin from doctors. And even the pain managememt kicked me out after 6 months. Another doctor had told me that would happen and it did... and its becoming more and more difficult to not go back to getting pain meds off tthe street. I am not a type to get them and get really messed up. Well i told the pain mamagement about that. Now none of them will help me.
Any help would be greatly appriciated,
P.S. i do know some people cant take even small pains. This is not me, i was raised country and can take lots of pain and work hard as hell. But i cant do this, im not sure many could. I need some relife. =(