I have Klippel Feil syndrome with abnormally small cord space in my neck. I have congenital fusion from C4 -6 and a surgical fusion C3-4. I still have spinal stenosis to the tune of 5ml at C3-4. My surgeon did a piss poor job of decompressing me. It has been recommended that I have another surgery but I am very reluctant. In the mean time I am a very busy mom to an 8 year old girl. I am fostering a 2 year old boy. We have had him for about a week and I've noticed since geting him that my hands have been going numb despite the fact that I've only picked him up handful of times. I think it is all the looking down. Have I made the biggest mistake ever in taking this little boy in? I feel like such a horrible person for thinking of sending him away. We've already fallen in love with him but I can't let myself make my cord injury worse by caring for him. Does anybody else have trouble caring for children? How do you cope?