My doc emailed me all my paperwork and forms this week for my upcoming December lumbar surgery with dates for pre-op testing and consent signing, and for some reason it totally freaked me out. One of the pages was regarding "Complex Spine Surgery" which includes multi-level (I'm having 2 levels), more than one surgery (this is my second), etc., and it talks about the increased risks of infection, non-fusion, paralysis, nerve problems, etc.
My hubby seems to think that I shouldn't be nervous because this is my third surgery (my first was a 3-lvl cervical) and for some reason doesn't understand that I'm starting to freak out.
Am I supposed to be an "old hand at this" having had two before? Do you all who've had more than one surgery still get nervous and a bit freaked out before your next surgery?
I guess I'm just needing some validation because I'm now not even talking about my surgery and how nervous I am to my hubby. My best friend died earlier this year and I'd call her, but all I have left is him and now I need to keep quiet.
I'll always have SH, too, so I might be posting more as I get closer to surgery. Dang...