My name is Odile, I was injured while helping to restrain a violent psychiatric patient this past summer. I have a herniated L4-5 with spondylisthesis (anterior, 8mm, 4 on 5) and sciatic pain bilaterally. A trial of physical therapy, while it maintained my muscle strength, did nothing to relieve the nerve pain. So here I stand (I had my husband move the computer to the breakfast bar) awaiting an XLIF on December 11. I'm not sure what has been more of a challenge, the physical disability or the nightmare of workers' compensation. I don't know if the pain is just eroding my soul, or if the dismal grey December weather is getting to me, but today, while shopping for sweat pants and leggings, I darn near burst into tears at Walmart. Worse yet, my husband will only be able to take off about a week from work, so I need to make some sort of arrangements for some home care assistance, and hope to hell that comp will cover that.
Lots of upsetting thoughts going through my head right now, everything from how I'm going to manage to how nasty I will look in "rehab chic," how to manage long hair in the shower with a brace, and I stumbled across the forum while I was scaring the hell out of myself for the umpteenth time researching my condition.
I guess I'm just hoping for some support and some knowledge that I'm not alone.
I'm not a spinal diagnosis. I'm a human being with a spinal diagnosis.