Again, I haven't been on in a while but wanted to say Hi. My surgery is Tuesday (Dec 18) and my job is working me to my very whits end. Gotta shove in all those jobs, right? I still have a lot of cleaning to do, everything hurts and I can't wait to just lay in that hospital bed and sleep and rest. I know it'll be painful, but I feel like I'm dying on my feet. Do you know what I mean?
Because my friends at work have donated some of their sick time to my recovery, I feel I need to work right up to Tuesday. But luckily, I only have a half day tomorrow because of our holiday lunch, work 8.75 hours thursday, am off friday, sat and sun and work half a day mon.
Have you ever felt so bone tired that a hospital bed seems like heaven? I come home hunched over in massive pain from all the work, still have to clean my house, do laundry, take care of Wally and try to find time for rest, which seems so rare. I can't do it after work so have to rely on weekends, except for Wally, of course.
This time, I have to take a shower the night before surgery with special soap, then put on brand new clean clothes, then do that again on Tuesday before surgery and be there by 6am. It's a 40 min drive...Lord, how am I going to make it?
It seems like a lifetime away, this surgery, and for the first time don't dread it because I so need sleep and rest. I don't sleep well anymore so I'm not getting the rest I need. Life goes on, but it seems like sometimes I can't make it that long. Then the struggle of recovery...oh, geez, so hard.
Sorry to vent but only you guys can understand unless I'm the only one whose felt this way, which I known is not the case. In the meantime, hubby seems to have all the energy in the world, which also makes me tired, but he can't seem to get housework done. I have to assume he'll pull it out this weekend and take care of business.
Being a spiney sucks. I wish upon wish that tomorrow was Tuesday and I drag, literally, myself out of bed to get ready then give me that sweet bed and happy juice.
Again, sorry for the lack of support right now but thanks for listening. I'm literally dragging myself from one place to another while waiting for pain pill time and surgery. Oh, this really does suck.
Hope all are well as can be. zzzzzzzzzzzzzz - I wish!