hello, this is my first post and i appreciate that this forum is here. I'm 56, and have had neck problems for 20 years now. I have stenosis, multiple level issues. I have chronic pain, have been on many different meds, PT, chiro, injections, traction.. have had to give up many things because of the pain and limitations. Ive tried my best to be as functional as possible, as active as i can be..not complain a lot.. not let the pain/discomfort,etc rule my life. Sometimes its hard to do. Over last few months ive had tingling, numbness into my hands and fingers, been dropping things more than usual..ongoing pain. I wake up during the night with both hands numb every night. The hands stuff is new, and it scares me. The last thing I want is surgery. I am very scared of that, and actually have a belief that it wouldnt help--it would make things worse.I know that might not be rational, but its how i feel. Tomorrow i have an appt with a new pain MD..and Im nervous about it because ive become less able to live with the symptoms...and i anticipate new diagnostics, and that theyll show changes that are causing these newer symptoms...and..what are the options..i dont talk to my kids about this, or my friends, because i dont want to worry or disturb them..and i think i also dont want to hear myself, either. So thanks for being here, and i hope its ok to post this.