Well the title says it all. I am due for ALIF of the L4-L5 on the 18th with bone marrow being taken from the left illiac crest.
A little about my journey....I am 30 years old and I've been dealing with the pain for close to ten years. DDD runs in the family as my mother and uncle both had surgeries due to this and my father had ruptured discs and had surgery to repair that. My mother had the same two discs gone as I do and has two rods with eight screws now and her surgery disabled her. I've always had back pain growing up but in November of 2004 I was involved in a car accident with my ex in which I was the passenger in a two door convertible and got hit on my side at 55mph to be spun around and hit another car. I had to be cut out of the car. Needless to say, then there were no signs of damage. Through the years, the pains became more apparent. I saw chiropractors, massage therapists, physical therapists, tried the TENS unit, everything imaginable. Back in September when I was packing to move into our house while sitting, I went to get up and had the most horrific pain imaginable. (I'm wondering if that's when my tear happened.) I went to visit an orthopedic dr in November and he had xrays and MRI done to confirm my L4 is gone and my L5 is almost gone as well. We tried injections which offered NO relief and he then ordered a discogram. That is THE most painful thing I have ever in my entire life experienced!!! (worse than when my clumsy self missed two steps and landed on my ankle and snapped a tendon) That dr gave me NO pain anything and I felt every single puncture as the needle went through...and all he gave me after was Loratab!!! really? For 4 days I was in the worst pain ever!!
To sit I have pain, to walk I have pain, to bend I feel like my spine is going to snap in half...I'm 30 and a newlywed and my quality and enjoyment in life has screeched to a halt and I'm irritable and angry all the time and I hate how I've become! And, icing on the cake, in December I just graduated to become an EMT and now I can't do that. My experience is in the ER and I can't work right now and praying I can return soon!!
I've made a list of all I have to do in the next two weeks and it's hitting me hard this is about to happen and I am just terrified. I'm most afraid the pain will get worse and regret it, but I'm praying for relief and a quick recovery and the new and better me to come alive again. I suppose it bothers me so much because I am such an independent person. The though on relying on people for so much help, I'm having a hard time of dealing with that. I'm also concerned after the surgery when we decide to have children how what will be as well. I've always worked out and done obstacle races with my husband and I wonder about returning to that as well. It feels good finding a place to go and talk to others going through the same!!
Looking forward to talking to and getting to know you all. Have a great day!!