I am reaching it because I am at the end of my rope. I try to be upbeat and remember that things are never so bad you cant handle it but the disappointment is getting to me. I had my SI joint injections yesterday and Im guessing they were a bust because my pain levels are as high or higher than prior. My understanding is that you get instant relief if its your pain generator. No such luck. I lost control of my bladder this morning at 6am...called surgeon and his advice was that go get tested for a UTI (bladder infection) This was no leakage (nice that I tell you all this) this was full loss of bladder. Has not happened again since. He let me know there are no nerves by the injection sit and no way no how can it be a response to the injections. I have had MRI since for leakage and no compression showed. I am a 3 level fusion and one of the lucky ones that has more pain than before surgery but I can walk upright...yes I can walk. I found out my neck is as big as a mess as my back and that fusion is in my future in that department as well. I am 45 years old and have small children...damn late start!
I am so down..hurting, feeling hopeless today. I called surgeon back and said its time to have a meeting to talk truths. Am I at the end of hope here, meaning he has done all he can do or is there something left to put my hope into. I am just 8 months out but it feels like lifetimes. I hate to bitch on here like this but my alternative is so much darker. For those that know me, I try to keep it upbeat, and honest but right now honest means I am falling apart at the idea this is my life.
Do dammit Alex, get me on that ship and lets go find your ex-wife so i can kick the shit out of her and get some pent up anger off my chest. If there is anyone who has suffered with loss of bladder was it ongoing or is the one time full blow pee on the kids floor a big concern? I dont know what to do. Sitting at the ER for yet another MRI to be told 'all looks good" Its not good, I hurt and I am so freaking tired of it! Now that was a good vent! Thanks and peace, El
3 level fusion L3-S1 July 23, 2012