I'm about to lose it. For over a year repeated CT scans have shown severe herniations compromising the canal and compressing the cord. The most recent CT was conducted on January 23. I cannot have MRI due to metal in my body.
I have had moderate to severe neck pain throughout 8 of the last 12 months, with radicular symptoms of varying intensity during roughly half that time. Accordingly, I am scheduled to undergo a 2-level fusion at NYU Hospital in 5 days.
Yesterday I underwent a myelogram, requested by surgeon to get a more detailed view than a CT will allow. The radiologic report states that there is essentially NOTHING WRONG WITH ME but mild to moderate disc bulges. (Sorry for shouting).
I'm on the edge here. I spent 6 or 7 year as a chronic pain patient from a lower back injury and several surgeries. I genuinely don't know if I have it in me to live through that nightmare again. The surgery was supposed to be the answer, but if there is suddenly nothing wrong with me then... If my surgeon sees the same thing as the radiologist, he would have to cancel the surgery.
I'm so scared that this is going to be my life. I'm a pretty positive guy, buy last time I was close to not making it out alive. The drugs and depression (i was a diagnosed Looney Toon before all this happened) and physical pain...