I just saw my surgeon for my 6 month check after discectomy and laminoforaminotomy for massive extruded lumbar disc. I am still in pain, have numbness, and am still trying to titrate off Hydrocodone, Lidoderm and Celebrex. Although I am only working 3 days a week, I am barely getting through each week. I don't understand why there aren't more options to help with nerve pain in this century. No, I can't take anti-convulsants or antidepressants-they only have a 33% efficacy rate anyway. I stopped taking my morning Hydrocodone 2 weeks ago and haven't been able to sleep well since. After getting no help from my surgeon (who said I may feel incremental improvement in 3-6 more months or not) and not responding about another MRI my GP and I decided to go back to taking Hydrocodone in the mornings even though I'd like to stop it. As all the doctors have said, I am out of options. I am tired and irritable all the time. I really have tried everything from PT, epidurals, TENS, you name it, but I can't get my pain down to a level where I can tolerate it. Driving is still horrible, so is sitting. I have tried to have a positive attitude but I am really starting to lose it. I only have a limited capacity for putting up with the fertilizing cliches I get from the surgeon and for keeping a brave face on. It's been nearly a year since I injured my back and although I am improving sluggishly after surgery, I am still at a pain level 4-5 most of the time. I know that' s considered a surgical success but why can't somebody remove the blunt knives from my rear end and thigh so I can sleep? I am trying to get a job closer to where I live so I don't have such a long commute but am not having much luck. Living with chronic pain is making me tired, frustrated, and hopeless. I wish I had my mom to talk to, but she's dead. I understand why there are high rates of depression among people with intractable back agony. I find it hard to look forward to anything except a day with less pain. And that seems utterly impossible. I don't see how I can keep going. I don't understand how people with chronic pain get through every day. I am REALLY tired of complaining al the time.