I will give you the Readers Digest of what I have dealt with. Surgery 9/9/2009 (4 discs fused: C3/4 thru C6/7 - anterior). Back to work in 4-5 weeks and felt better. C6/7 disc disolved and needed to be refused. 7/11/2011 surgeon went into my neck posterior and severe pain followed: wound would not close or heal. Back into hospital within 2 weeks to reopen, clean out and put a drain plug in my neck. Finally after another 3-4 weeks, the wound finally started to heal. But....not before an awful scar formed. Plastic surgery was done on 11/23/2011. Since all of this.....there are been very few days that I have not felt some sort of pain. But....the pain has been increasing significantly for the last year. The last several months have been UNBEARABLE and I can't remember a day that I felt good. I knew that there had to be nerve damage based on the intensity of the stabbing shoulder blade pain that radiates into my neck, thru the shoulder, down the back of my arm and into my hand.
So....yesterday I had an appointment with a new Ortho Surgeon. He said that I am a very complicated case because I have mutliple things going on. He said since they haven't done an MRI on me since 12/2011 that we need to get one done to narrow down any further disc problems. AND....I definitely need ulnar nerve surgery to repair and eliminate the pain/numbing/ache into the arm and hand. I have no idea what the MRI is going to tell him, but I'm not holding out any hope that it will lead to a definitive resolution. When you have nerve damage in your neck or back...there are no gaurentees that anything can be done to 100% resolve the pain and take it away. I'm trying to hold out hope, but it's so hard to stay positive. I honestly don't know how much more I can take. Sometimes my mind goes to very dark places and I think it's easier just to give up. I'm at an all time low right now and don't know how to pull myself out of this severe pain & deep depression.