Hello, My name is Dixie and I too have a back problem. (kind of feels like an AA meeting huh?) I am new to online forums however it seems there are lots of people out there who are going through the same issues I am, so here we go. I will be having a double fusion at L4/5 and L5/S1 in 17 days and needless to say, I am freaking out. My broken pars are due to falling from a zipline when I was 12, the spinal instability wasn't really an issue until I started walking the floors of a hospital and tugging on sometimes very large patients. My pain is not unbearable, I've had 20+ years to get used to it and compensate, so the potential post op relief from chronic pain is not my reason for proceeding with the fusion. Apparently if I want to walk, it is necessary due to the introduction of drop foot which occurs spontaneously throughout my day. My apprehension is valid, I've seen the other side of things, I understand the pain and the rehabilitation that is ahead of me. As of right now, I will be on leave from the hospital for 10 week as there is no light duty for a nurse. I was wondering if any of you post op people out there have any tips you'd like to share on how to get mentally prepared for surgery.