Hi, my name is Betty, and have been dealing with chronic pain for the past 22 yrs. I'm home recuperating from my 3rd fusion, however this one was a surprise . . One morning I was awaken with horrible pins and needles in both thighs, and in just a few weeks the feeling to (R) leg was gone, and was starting in my (L) leg. By the time the two MRI's were completed I was unable to lift both legs, and needless to say, emergency surgery had to be done fusing T11-T12. I came across this site today, and it may help to read others problems , and may be get insight to what others are doing to be able to function in daily life. No one understands what I go through. The relationship with my son is strained, because his wife thinks I'm a total bitch, as well as her family. They don't get it through their heads that I have good and bad days. My son and now wife had a destination wedding, two months post op of second surgery. Never met me at airport, with me taking suitcases off carousal , so by the time I got to the hotel in Cancun, I could barely walk. Let's just say, it was the trip from hell. There was no compassion, no care, and the indifference of these people made me sick. Chronic pain destroys everything, people think I have no tolerance, or I don't know how to deal with pain. That's no surprise there, since I look healthy, and only go out when I feel human. I spend 95% in my house. Yes! I have thought.of ending it all, because enough is enough. I went from being a very active and fun person, to a dull person, who doesn't do much. Well today I'm praying that I get through this latest surgery, since I still get pins and needles, however strength has definitely coming back, so hurrah.
Clara B. Goede