hello everyone this is baxterman calling fron florida. first a little info about myself and predicament. i am a 50 year old man with a past history of iv drug abuse, (25 year long heroin addiction), who has been clean now for 5 years come december 3rd. in late 2008 i entered and completed a residential treatment program for my addiction. at the time i was on methadone maintenance treatment in order to help me abstain from my drug of abuse/choice. i understand that to a lot of people it is somewhat of a controversial subject and i only include it here because it has a direct bearing on my current problem.
not long after completing treatment i injured my lower back in a way that brought about the most excruciating pain i had ever experienced in my life. to make a long story short i have since been off of my feet at my home with absolutely no active/social life to speak of. i have been diagnosed with multi-level lumbosacral radicalopathy or otherwise symptomatically known as sciatica. i have nerve impingement causing moderate nerve pain going down my left legg. feels sorta like a permanent charlie horse with an aching lower back. also since being laid up with this i have gained wieght which has aggravated my lower back pain.
initially at the time of my hospitalization 4 years ago it was decided that the methadone i was already taking for my addiction issues would also be an ideal pain medication for my chronic pain. since leaving a methadone maintenance clinic and starting treatment with my primary care doctor i have recieved alot of judgement from pain doctors and other people in the healthcare field. well i have finally decided to take back charge of my life and healthcare by declining any more methadone and i have refused all other narcotic pain meds since first hitting the er room 4 years back. i have found it very strange since getting past my drug withdrawals that i now seem to have more energy and motivation towards diet and exercise than ever before. I find it strange indeed that the irony of my life is that i probably abused just about any narcotic pain med you could probably think of back when i was in no pain whatsoever and now that i am in constant chronic pain i don't want them anymore. sorry for such a long 1rst post but i felt an accurate intro about myself was important. i have lost 15 pounds so farith another 100 to go .........please anyone or everyone keep me in your prayers.....if you pray.....thanx.