I have suffered back pain for a couple of years, but never continuous. Nothing my stoic German heritage couldn't brush under the rug. Recently it is constant 24/7 pain like many others here. I am 32 and male and I am having trouble coping with the loss of my independence and the ability to pull my weight around the house. I just had a major flare up and my pain is not under control. I have been able to hold down my IT job, through flexibility and trust gained from years of hard work.
With this current flare ul my pm doc fast tracked my final epidural for this week (very pushy to get me under the needle). I have a rx for hycod 7.5/500 3/4 daily through primary care, plus norflex and gabapentin.
My pain is not under control and I find myself fighting for help. I am trying to see if one of my docs will set me up with a tens to help through this breakthrough pain. But my pm clinic "doesn't do that"
I feel like some kind of criminal needing to get pain meds. My wife and some family members don't understand the need for all the "pills". Sometimes my wife says why don't you pop another pill when I get grumpy or I am hurting and my temper gets short. She is having trouble because I can't pickup things or keep the yard mowed when my pain is worse.
I feel depressed from having to ask for help and putting the extra stress on my wife. I don't want to push her away, but when my pain is bad like this I either find myself being mean or being distant. I know the pills have effects and change your mood (peaks and valleys) to the point where you don't notice it, but other people do.
I am looking for advice on how to keep a marriage together and how to ask for help when I need it or just general thoughts
I am new here and i just needed to vent too.