Hello my name is Nicole, right now I am having the hardest time in my life. About a month ago I was completely fine and then woke up to horrendous stabbing pain in my butt and hamstring. I originally thought it was a pulled muscle, and so did my doctor. He prescribed muscle relaxers and ibuprofen and it didn't work. I came back and saw him again and he said that I might have herniated a disc and that "90% of those will heal in time" he prescribed me more muscle relaxers and Vicodin. The pain got more intense as days went by, Vicodin didn't touch the pain. I saw a different doctor and he again told me that herniated discs will heal, don't sit too long, lay down when you can, blah blah and prescribed me Percocet. And a round of prednisone. I will say that for 2 days the prednisone worked and I felt fantastic, not 100% but about 75% better, but then the pain returned with a vengeance . And he ordered an MRI. Percocet doesn't touch the pain either. I got my MRI done about 3 weeks ago. I have a herniated disc L5 s1, 13x13x16mm. This is HUGE!! And doctors still think it will heal itself?!?? I went back again because I can't sleep I can't walk more then 10 steps without wincing in pain. He prescribed me gabapentin and now morphine. I am so sick of this, I don't understand this pain, and how it came on so suddenly. My life is literally over right now, I don't go out with friends, I don't go to the store, I don't do ANYTHING, because I am in pain 24/7. My doctors next step is to get me in for a cortisone injection. I was hopeful because of the effect of the prednisone, that I would get enough relief from the cortisone for my body to heal. Well after researching and researching I am SCARED BEYOND BELIEF, I have heard that surgery is the only way to correct this, I'm worried about permanent nerve damage the longer I wait, I'm worried about being on medication for life, im worried thst the gabapentin will make me act stupid like ive heard,I'm worried about the cortisone shot working for a day then fading away, or I'm worried about it making it way worse pain. I just don't know what to do anymore I just want my life back, I cry all the time from not being able to do anything because I am in constant pain, I'm worried about losing friends, becoming depressed and losing my life over this. I used to be so happy and active I am so sick of this and I just want to be me again!!! I want my life back!!! I'm worried that I won't be able to carry a child thru pregnancy, I'm worried I won't be able to ride my quads, or go jet skiing, or horseback riding I'm a very adventurous person!!
::::hoping for happiness again::::