I have been living with chronic pain for over 18 years now and have just about given up on trying to find relief. About 3 years ago I went in for a lumbar spinal fusion and it didn't take my bone was to soft according to my doctor. The screws that had been put in basically stripped themselves out and just rattled around in my back. I then went in for another revision to take the old hardware out and put in a larger set of screws. Again the screws began working themselves out. I then went in for a third surgery where this time they went through the back removed the screws, and the rods to see that I didn't have enough bone to put in any larger screws. So they turned me over and went in through my front and ended up put screws and rods and a cage around my spine to hold everything together. I went through all in hopes of getting just some relief from my pain. In the end I still feel the same no relief. Each day if sleep when I wake up I hate it. The same issues the same feeling of being hopeless and helpless. I try to talk to what few friends I have left about how I feel and what should do. Just wanting some friendly advice or just hoping that maybe my brain would focus and I could find some clarity on what to do.
I've been seeing this pain management doctor for the past 7 months and he has been suggesting a spinal stimulator. Last month I finally decided to give it a try so tomorrow I go in to have one installed for a trial run for the next week. I don't want to get my hopes up and find out that this like so many other things that I have tried is a failure to. I got my hopes when I had my spinal fusion and was let down three times with that. I have tried a tens unit and that was just about hopeless. I've tried physical therapy for more years than I really want to admit. I've tried acupuncture and herbal treatments and each time with no effect. Now I'm trying this I scared I'm worried and I am at the end of my rope. If this fails I don't know what to do. I can't keep this up much longer, mentally it is draining on me.
If anybody out there has any advice or suggestions I am willing to hear them. I am just tried and don't know what else to do. Each day feels like forever. Being in pain is exhausting both physically and mentally. I thought that over time I would be able to handle it or deal with it, but to be honest after 18 years it is starting to take its toll on me. So I am open to suggestions at this point. I am tired of taking pills and using hot packs. I just want to go from a 9-10 pain level down to say a 5-6 pain level.