I was a member on here a few years ago.
I knackered my back 4 or 5 years ago while working for the Prison Service here in the UK.
I signed up to this site and to be honest the people on here helped to keep me sane.
Since then I have moved house three times and tried to get on with life.
I've carried on with life trying to continue as best I can but deep down I know that things aren't going to get any better.
My meds are as low as I can manage but I've put on over a 120 lbs in weight after my fusion surgery of L4-5 and I'm in more pain now than I was before the operations.
I was crying myself to sleep when I remembered some of the people I spoke to on here.
I'm now too damn tired to carry on writing so I'll call it a night.
Its 2:12am here in the UK.
Thanks for listening.
Scott from the UK