My life had been going so well almost 4 years ago. I went to school and became a Licensed Veterinary Technician. I was working at a great animal hospital and worked hard to see my patients become well again. One day I lifted a heavy dog that had collapsed. Everything changed from there.
Last year I finally received a diagnosis for my debilitating pain. I couldn't sit through lectures at school, bend to lift my patients, basically, couldn't do anything that I love to do. I have Sacroiliac Joint Dysfunction, Lumbar Facet Syndrome, and Lumbar Radiculopathy due to a bulging disc at L5/S1.
Today, I walk with a cane. I am stuck at home all day because I can't drive. No school, no work, no me.
I don't mean for this to sound like a pity party, but I need to get this off my chest. I miss being a 23 year old. I feel lost. I can't do the job that I love, I can't go to school to finish my bachelor's degree. I feel as though my life has been put on hold. I'm not myself anymore because of the medications I need to take to just take the edge off my pain. I want to be able to walk with my boyfriend and our dogs, I want to be able to go back to school, I want to be able to be me again.
I'm sorry if this sounds like a "woe is me" sort of post. I'm just feeling very down today.