Hi to all of my fellow Spineys
It has been awhile since I started a thread here. The last time I did was before and after a failed Thoracic SCS trial in 2010.
After that I worked extensively with my Pain Psychologist to learn to live in my body the way it is. I am very fortunate to be a patient at an Interdisciplinary Pain Clinic. Once we got my medications dialed in I was living day to day with pain levels between 3 and 6 which is fantastic and more than I could have hoped for.
Over the last 6 months side effects of Gabapentin and daily pain levels from 5-7 led to a 3 month discussion about the pain pump. The change in my pain happened when I moved to a beautiful cottage in the redwoods in March of 2013. There are no flat roads where I live to walk my dog. Walking Sammy on hills, and using my freestanding wood stove to heat my home has been very difficult. I have found sources for fire wood that provide lightweight small madrone and almond. I have tried every possible loading method to reduce strain to my thoracic spine.
My trial was on 01/09/2014 and was going very well. Doctors orders were to walk a LOT post injection. My pain level increased to a 5 and my Physician deemed the trial unsuccessful only 6 hours after the injection. While on the telephone with my doc I found myself saying ridiculous things. I said that I did not have my walking shoes and that I just needed to rest up then walk more like I do in my daily life. The truth is I was very sad, more sad than I have been in a very long time, to hear that the trial was not a success. The pain relief that I experienced before I walked was fantastic. I did not want to let go of the idea that I could have this relief permanently.
I have been on a roller coaster of emotions and thoughts since then. It is just a lot to go through and I feel very sad, then I think that it just was not meant to be.
So here I am again on spine-health, where I know it is safe to put it all out there.