I find myself in fear all day due to having cervical stenosis and minor lumbar. I have not had surgery but as I read the surgery stories, I get terribly anxious. I am on Lexapro which is helping immeasurably. But, the constant thought is always on my mind, if I deteriorate to the point of needing surgery.
I've posted before, I have limited family and really no help. My girlfriend lives across town. If I need surgery, I don't know how I'll make it. Also, the thought of being on opiates while being alone and perhaps the rest of my life scares the hell out of me. I've also said that I have my own business that I have to run and it's getting difficult. I can't do as much. Anyway, thanks for letting me vent.