I am new to this forum thing. But I need someone to talk to. I can not talk to family or friends because they do not understand. I have been on disability since 1995. I started out with DDD. It kept getting worse. Then testing started. MRI. Cat scans, them all telling DDD and exercise and diet. Etc. I was 45 then. They would not operate on DDD back then. So I suffered and tried to live my life. Good days and bad days. In the last 10 years I have tried steroid injections, pain pills, spinal stimulator, physical therapy all to no avail. I got really desperate in 2011 and let the neuro do L-4, L-5 fusion. He said I had spondillitheosis and with ruptured disk. Said should relieve the pain. I also had him take out stimulator because was not helping. I am in worse pain after surgery and can not even do simple chores that I use to do. The fusion did not fuse. So here I sit. I feel useless and lazy. I get up and do something and have to sit back down. My spine has messed up my bladder, bowels, lungs, and I have a paralyzed stomach. Am looking forward to corresponding with people like me.