they are prescription and were prescribed to me, I cant afford my meds because ime not working.
the world has shrunk down to limbo, a nothingness eating at me, not black, not white,its as if ime suspended in a pearly white sameness, blind, deaf and losing all my feelings, a sad pearl i guess
i am not afraid of the sadness, its ,my constant and staid companion, the darkness has always been
the silence, the stillness of my soul has gone.
no one here helps, no here has the time, ime in the way and i know and see that, ime an option they choose to push the button for.
I know my worth
in their eyes, i also know my worth
there is not much spare change left when they think of mine
I hate the way they make me feel, but in the end result, they did even the waters
Ive got some friends, they reach into the waters when ime under
the problem is when i dont want to be reached for, they dont understand
they are hurt and begin to shy away
that is one tragedy of this darkness, the people close to you want need and will go to the ends of time and earth foryou
but the depression says to reject them, the time worn battle between self and wanting/rejecting help
it weighs on me, i know ime doing it, my friends dont understand, and i dont have the energy to explain the dichotomy
my friends deserve better, ime not so rich in friends that i can afford to lose any..more.
thanks for the time