To start off, I was 16 years old when I first initially strained my back. I was on a friends trampoline and did a back flip. Well, being the idiot I was, I did it with my shoes on, while it was raining, and landed it; as soon as I landed it, I immediately slipped forward and had my upper body brace my fall while the force of the trampoline coming back up bent me in half and I immediately just layed on my back in agonizing pain and after about five minutes I got up to gauge my motor functions. Walking was fine and running felt odd. To add on, I played football and wrestled and weight trained extensively prior to this so I am a very engaged person when it comes to body composition and mobility. I still did after and was not able to continue wrestling due to the fact my back was so tight I couldn't even get in a stance; and football was a struggle where the chronic pain only affected me in the summers and I was always able to kind of get by in football without throwing my body on the line.
Since then, I have been to three physical therapists and resorted to pain meds and just last year, Christmas of 2013, I did the epidural injection into my L5/S1 herniated disc. Even being numbed, I felt the most intense searing pain slide down my leg to my last two toes on my left foot. I was in excruciating pain and the woman who injected the needle saw this and rather than inject into the disc, she placed it on the L4/L5 area so the cortico-steroid could drip down into the affected area.
Currently, I am a college student whom is always stressed and, honestly, so depressed that I feel so sorry for myself and convince myself it will never get better. I am five years into my chronic on and off pain and still stay active physically. I went the route of not doing much exercise and ended up feeling worse mentally, physically, and even emotionally; I have been working out almost everyday doing lower back exercises and semi body building training solely for the fact that it is one of my passions as it is a place for me to reflect and find peace in my life. I feel like this peace has been taken from me as I am always having to worry about if I slip up at any moment my disc will protrude even further into my nerve column.
The pain I feel at this moment is on and off, currently on. My everyday movements are hindered by tightness in my lower back, hips, and legs. I also cannot feel a certain nerve down my leg that leads to my last two toes on my left foot, as stated earlier. I am tired of waking up in the morning and making it such a process of slow and developing pain while it takes me at least two hours into my day of moving to get to class and remain sedentary only to stand up at the end of a lab and sort of hit a restart button on my back, my mood and my mental health.
My question is: What can I expect from a microdiscectomy?
My core and lower back muscles are strong and flexible, I just cannot extend my back because I feel the vertebrae flare up in pain if I go back even just 15*.
I have such a wave of anxiety flow through me when I think of being worked on in my lower back region due to the botched epidural injection that, to this day, haunts me from how much pain I was in. I would love opinions because I am at wits end going through this cycle of pain and depression that I can tell is straining my relationship with my friends and family, I am a very happy person but sometimes this pain summons such a form of depression that just consumes me. So any advice at all, personal anecdotes or advice or support into a decision will help me so much with this. Knowing people who are suffering from the same condition that haunts me gives me some comfort because being twenty years old I only know a handful of people who suffer from this.