Or jealous that I could scream. I feel so bad because it's against everything I am to be like this. Social media can be so upsetting. I used to be an avid runner. I loved to challenge myself. Take a new class here or there. Kick boxing, power pump, you name it. After I had my accident and spinal fusions I thought that my heart would break. I had to give up so much that I loved. My stress reliever, exercise had consumed so much of my time and in its absence I was "resting". Since then I have been trying to convince myself that just walking and doing physical therapy exercises when I can is a challenge. It's so fun to finally walk around the block for a week, only to have a huge setback. Now all I see on facebook is everyone I know doing a mud run or running a race or doing a boot camp. You would think there might be a filter around me but there isn't. Too bad I can't go. They miss me when training or running. I would love this new class, too bad I'm not there. Maybe someday I can run again. Maybe medicine will come up with a way to fix me. I feel like a little kid locked inside, when all of the other kids get to go outside and play. Any positive thoughts would be so helpful right now.
Fall in 2007- broken spine. Spinal fusion T10-L1. 2nd fusion L4-S1.failed back syndrome