Hello, new to the forum here. I'm looking to read and talk with people who are trying to live a life just as I am with chronic pain. I've had 2 lumbar L5 S1 discectomy surgeries starting in 2003 and a neurostimulator implant in 2005. I spent about 4 years out of pain management due to corporate restructering and loosing my job and health insurance. I couldn't cope any longer and found a doctor to help me cope with back pain as well as pain in both legs. I have been seeing this doctor for about 3 years, covering the expenses for visits, testing, and perscriptions out of pocket with no insurance.
My life is better than when I wasn't in pain management. I have a healthy relationship with a wonderful girl who partially understands my situation. I don't think she fully gets it at times but I dont expect her to, she gets just as frustrated as I do. I'm hoping this condition doesn't ruin another personal relationship as it has in the past.
I'm tired of the stigma that goes along with people in pain management. I wouldn't be taking medications if I didn't need them to live some type of normal life where I can enjoy some hobbies or go on a vacation or basicly get out of bed and maintain a job. I've had doctors who are very quick to label me disabled, I am not disabled and not taking that route. I've been labled as drug seeking, an addict, and a junkie. I'm neither of the 3. I'm really digusted by the things and people including those in healthcare that I've had to encounter due to this condition.
I apologize for my rant, I'm just frustrated again, it will go away eventually. I understand everyone here has probably the same problems or have encountered similiar situations. I always tell myself things could be much worse.
Good luck to all of you, I look forward to meeting you in the forums.