Hi! My name is Jodi and I am a "Newbie" to this site. I stumbled across it looking to find info and if anyone else is going thru what I am and have been thru. And wow! The struggles and different stories are ... heart breaking and makes me not only hopeful but makes me sad. I am sorry that there are so many like me out there. I have never struggled so hard in my life with anything like this. I have always found myself to be a fighter and a tough woman. However, thru this...I find I am weak, a big baby and I do not know who I am anymore with all the pain and not healing!
My story is long. My story about my back, leg and surgeries is tough for me. I want to share and will under the correct forum and ask for advice.
I will say that I had finally got my dream career making great money and after 9 years of being a single parent met my fiance. We had a beautiful daughter and I had three surgeries after her birth due to internal bleeding and then I blew my L5 out and had the back surgery 8 months later. I struggle daily and still have help 15 months later to care for my baby and my other two kids. I am not healing and just found out today that I will never be an officer again were I work and my doctor said I am disabled now and will have to go back to work in another capacity. I still have one more surgery in 4-6 months and I also developed a huge anxiety issue and barely leave our house due to gaining 40 pounds due to surgeries. I do not want anyone seeing me as I am as I have always been athletic and outgoing. I struggle daily to leave our gate and out is a lot for me. I have 5 doctors I am working with.
And that is why I call it my beautiful nightmare. Having my daughter was worth it ...