I am feeling really hopeless right now. I had a spine fusion when I was 15 for scoliosis and it went fine but about 12 years later it broke in two places,the scoliosis had gotten worse I also have kyphosis,stenosis,DDD,osteoarthritis and herniated discs and now my hips are degenerating and Im 34. I take morphine 30 mg a day for the pain and my mother in law came into town and went thru my things and saw I was taking it. Now she hates me and told my husband to leave me because I am a drug addict.
I had 2 surgeries in 2012 to correct the broken fusion and had a additional 17 screws,2 more rods a cage put in my back to my sacrum. SO now I feel like I maybe don't need them. Maybe I am being a baby and the pain isn't that bad. Im usually bedridden but maybe I'm not trying hard enough. I don't know. I am confused and don't know what to do. I feel so guilty taking pain meds but I can barley walk without them.