I am as I am. I do as i do. I seek self evidence and offer my truth. My experience with my body and interpretation of pain has stripped away all illusions and sensitized my acuity. I have endured and coped with persistent and increasing pain signals from a clear and identifiable cause. I have been through the full process of emotional intensities created by the pain process and have adapted as much as I am able and continue to work towards this goal. I am no less and no more then any other who knows what can only be known by this experience and by experience alone can it be known.
I try to be mindful and self aware so that as I seek, I am able to see what the intentions and motivations of others are. Their paradigm and their direction. In doing so, I must be vigilant in my responsibility of myself to ensure a minimized self bias and equilibrium in communication to create connection and reciprocation.
I am here to see what is here and exchange thoughts and feelings for mutual support of the other for strength and hope, and to facilitate resonance.
I am human. I am needy. I am open. I am here, now. And I am you.
Equal exchange is not advice, it is the give and take of expression.
As I seek, I also seed. It is so for each.
Soon, I will once more be in the great struggle to overcome what we who have been there know as trauma and the surgery will create an opportunity, another possibility, a reckoning for this body and this mind to try again.
I look forward to future interactions and the potential for help and support as I and all others make our way through this process.
Both Shoulders Reconstruction
S1 to L3 FF. C3-4 plates
S1-T10 8 level posterior approach procedure TBA end of September.
7 Surgeries 6 months apart by end of 2012
Neurological autoimmune disease class progressive state.