I have read many of the post on here and although its sad how many people have the issues they have it is also comforting knowing that I am not alone. About 2 years ago I had the surgery fusion of L4, L5 & S1 it was following a decade of pain in lower back. The pain after surgery was intense but was made easier with opiates. I thought the surgery was a success because the pain was not in the same place, 2 years later I am in so much pain I have quit all the activities I enjoyed as a man can that is going on 50, I still work 55-60 hours a week since the bills keep coming in but I am in constant pain. I was with a pain management Dr. but 1 month I was in a lot of pain and ran out of the meds he prescribed and i failed my urine test for not having enough of the meds in my system, now I am at wits end, I can not imagine living like this and I kick myself in the butt for doing what I did. I am sure I am dependent on the medication and I might even be addicted to it but I can not manage to do what I need to do without the 30% or 40% of pain relief the meds gave. This forum is the only people I ahve found to understand the pain and the thoughts that accompany the pain. I know this is a brief description of my situation but any input would be greatly appreciated.