I am in a really bad place right now. I feel so alone and desperate with no hope.
I got a call from my LTD company and they said because of my WC $$ (which is from another job) they will have to start to deduct that money each month when rolling over into LTD. When I had STD I was getting both salaries, because I worked 2 jobs.
I live all alone with no SO and very few friends locally now that I am a new Spiney. I believe I am suffering from post traumatic stress disorder. I went to the link here on SH and I have so many symptoms. I've definitelly had too much trauma and drama happen within just a few months.
Lost 2 jobs that I loved, hurt on the one job of 7 years, hurt by a co-worker sexually harassing me, had botched surgery and staph infection, apartment was flooded with raw sewage right after surgery and was under quarantine for 10 days and took baths in the kitchen sink for 54 days. Hepititis scare and now a tumor in my uterus.
Today's blow just really blew me away. How can I live on $152 dollars a month after the bills are paid? That's $38 a week for food, gas, dr. co-pays for non related emergencies.
My biggest fear is being homeless. I have no one that would take me in.
I'm just so worried because I have attempted suicide before and I have so many dangerous meds now that could do the job permanently. I wish I was dead right now... it's just too much for one person to go through alone. I was doing so well keeping up with my PT after being discharged, fighting left and right with WC and all the health insurance compaies. It's a full time job being disabled. Plus I've had fever and nausea for a week tomorrow and am just so tired and worn out.
I'm sorry I'm babbling, but i'm just so lonely and scared right now. Thanks for listening.