All my life I've slept a lot,
it used to be no big deal because I can't really cope with life and suffer from crippling anxiety and possibly depression so sleep was always a good escape and the best part of my day, but now it's become the worst. For the past three years my sleeping schedule has progressed severely, and in the past few months it's gotten entirely out of hand. I have missed so much school this month alone that I'm being threatened with not being able to graduate, I miss important meetings, birthdays, parties, movies, my favorite shows I'm not eating (not losing any weight either, different issue though, seriously i only eat healthy foods and do my best to exercise when awake, why can't I even drop a single pound?) or doing any homework, seriously if my absences from school don't take me off the graduation list it will be because I have an F in every class.
I wake up at 6:30 am to get to school at 7 and I BARELY make it until 2:25, I bring silly putty with me to play with so it's harder for me to fall asleep, I can't even process what we're learning in class it's in one ear and out the other, I cry every day, not loud balling but like painful my heart really hurts and I keep crying so I always look puffy and in pain and the second I get home, I have no energy and fall right into my bed and when I wake up it's the next day. This happens every day sometimes I'll get home, fall asleep, and wake up two days later. I have no weekends, no free time, no social life (not that I had one anyways) but I just can't stay awake, it's killing me.
I've taken up drinking energy teas in the morning and day, coffee when I get home and at least two energy drinks at night, it barely works, it keeps me awake but barely functioning I can barely move! It's ruining my life and making things really difficult for me. I lose control of my limbs a lot as well, I am so tired that it really hurts to move and especially write, my hand is so tired it's like it's frozen in place. Most of all, it's my legs. The past month or so my legs have turned into fiery jelly. Every step I take hurts, I always have to sit down to try and rest and ease the pain, icing it or heating pads or massages but sitting down always ends up with me asleep. I used to be a dancer (I quit because I would fall asleep during class or get really sick and throw up) so I know how to take care of my body so I don't injure myself when working out, so I can't figure out why my whole body is breaking down and I can't function anymore.
I have a lot of other problems besides this, I can't really leave the house because I'm always sick but I can't take care of my other problems if I'm not awake to deal with them, I don't know what to do >____<
I'll list some symptoms that I think may have something to do with my fatigue...
PS. Online said I might not be getting enough water, I drink tons of water every day though
getting sick from all foods I eat
Feeling sick in general
Lots of anger issues
(feeling the need to break smash and throw things 24/7)
Extreme, crippling anxiety about everything .
I've started having an insane amount of truly disturbing nightmares,
I fall asleep without choice,
I don't have a say I'll fall asleep anywhere and everywhere.