So I have heard the expression: This is a real pain in the ass, but until recently, I always took it as a figure of speech. I don't know exactly when it all started, it could be anywhere from a few months to a few years ago, but the physical pain has only been manifesting in my ass for a few months now, and it is so apparent that I have difficulty focusing on anything but this pain. Even as I am writing this, I am only half mindful about what I am saying because the other half is thinking about this pain in my ass.
The pain started while I was at my last job back in December 2014, but it was not because of any physical related work injury. Have you ever felt someone looking at you? Well, in this instance, there was a former coworker standing behind me during a training class. He had been trying to get under my skin for a while now, and I was keeping my distance so as to avoid conflict. Nevertheless, management put us in the same class, and he, being an uneducated roughneck, and I, being an educated engineer, were soon in the proximity that the roughneck desired. I was enthralled by the education, and trying to ask questions, but the roughneck was insistent that I pay attention to him so he stood behind me and cast his gaze. I thought to turn around and fight, but there were several other roughnecks surrounding me who all supported what he was doing, and I could not afford to lose my job because I am supporting my pregnant wife. I was left helpless. As it was happening, I slowly lost concentration of the lesson that was being taught and could feel his gaze pushing my shoulders forward. The few subsequent days after the incident, I could feel a dull pain moving downward along my spinal column as though my spine were being pushed out of alignment. A week later, the pain felt as though it were constricting my anus. Nowadays, I can feel it in different ways: sometimes it feels like sciatica going from my sacrum to my heel, other times it is an acute pain in the upper right or left sides of my lower back. Massaging sometimes will help, but the pain never goes away.
As far as the job goes, I was actually fired and the other employee kept his job. It is sad to think that a company would instill so much hostility amongst its own employees, but that is the nature of that company. There is more background to what led up to the incident, but I am sharing the information about the pain in case someone might know what I can do about it. I just want to be able to focus, again. I am struggling to even listen while others are talking to me, now; and it has greatly impacted my life both professionally and personally.