I have 10 years chronic pain under my belt, 8 years misdiagnosed. The last 2 years been through caudel injections, nerve ablation, nerve blocks, epidurals, fusion of 3rd& 4th vertebra and decompression. Enough Titanium in my back that added an inch to stature. Before surgery pain was at 10+ on pain scale and close to completely going bonkers. Ruined family relations with wife and kids, not close to any friends anymore, employer is not happy. Seems anything that was ever important has been mitigated by pain or stolen from me, I do not blame anyone. Have been in fetal position several times in almost complete emotional dis-regulation. New pain doc is very conservative on opiates, its ok to see patients suffer and nobody's dying on my watch. Pain increased to point of going fetal again. Doc thinks you can take it but i am at end of my tolerance level. I have oxycodone and fentyanyl patches, cymbalta and recently weaned off nuerontin (gabapentin) but now while I can take the physical pain, i cant take any more emotional pain. I am losing interest and motivation to keep on keeping on. How do i explain to doc that my soul cant take much more without being a candidate for a 72hr evaluation. Ive taken stronger meds but he says i will feel better when i get off opiates, which is impossible as i am losing personal sanity. My heart cannot make that journey right now.
Any ideas or suggestions to get effectively medicated.