I had a Lumbar Fusion L5- S1 with Laminectomy April of 07. At the time I didn't want to know anything about the surgery. All I allowed myself to know was that they were going to g oin fix the disc and put some rods and screws in. I think this was my way of keeping from freakig out. The less I knew the better.
Well it has been a year since and I have started to read up and see pictures of what was done to me. Ever since I have been depressed and feeling awful. I never knew what a major operation I had. I have also been going through the whole back pain issue and surgery alone. I have a husband, but he is not there for me. The first weeks at home after surgery I have never felt so alone in my life. He would come home from work and never sit or talk with me. I would haveto beg him for a shower or food and he would yell at me. And now of course he thinks because I had the surgery I should be all better. Well we all know you never get back to 100 % pain free! I still have alot of lower back pain, still take pain meds and am limited on what and how much I can do.
Any advice on how to cope with the post surgery depression or where to find help?