When I started going to this pain clinic it was what everyone here complains about- they wanted to do the epidurals and minimal narcotics. Now I am on MS-Contin, Percocet for break through pain, and Lyica for the nerve pain. It took the docs and the therapists at this clinic a few months to get me to trust them that I would not get addicted.
The goal they got me interested about was, high levels on pain meds which I was in rehab for the pain. I could set my physical goals with my docs and the physical therapists, I'd learn what I needed to do, strengthen my core and learn how my own body could compensate for those parts which were broken or dysfunctional.
My friends and I decided that a 5K was not too much and I have 2 years to reach the goal. My friends will be doing the actual training runs with me- they all do long distance running and I want to do it too! And my friends know I am medication dependent- they knew me before the Pain Clinic and know why I am medication dependent too.
I'm actually afraid of hearing the docs and therapists say, "No, you can't do a 5K." Oh I know it won't be pretty! Since my initial injury was when I was 8 years old and I'm now 48 I've had a lot of limitations. But tonight, the night before returning to PT after a 4 month break, I feel like I need someone else to turn off my computer and pull down my bed sheets.
Before the Pain Clinic came around I thought I was counting down my days. My back, neck, hips, knees....... argh! I have hardware in a knee and 2 back surgeries. Now I'm thinking about a future of climbing cliffs and running trails. My biggest fear now is hearing that I've set my goals too high. I cannot hear, "You can't do that" because it would kill that tiny spark that's just starting inside.
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I took the one less traveled by...... (Robert Frost)
I still don't know if I should have taken the one that said, "Caution! Dead End" (Me)