Hi. I'm scheduled for Lumbar Fusion (PLIF ) next week L4, 5 and S1. Getting anxiety about upcoming surgery, recovery. I want my life back! Was always very active and athletic. Last 2 yrs been living hell and has really changed my lifestyle. Used to travel, have so many interests even did Triathlon. Have had 6 MRI'S and 2 EMGS and shows 3 Herniated Discs, Severe Spinal Stenosis , slipped discs and the burning, shooting rods of fire and lightening down my legs I've finally decided to do this. My feet feel like they are being stung by a thousand bees... I need to write a song ! Have exhausted all conservative treatment. PT, Pain Management, Injections , had a Neuro spinal Stimulator implanted (failed) tried Acupuncture , deep tissue and trigger points massages, meditation, yoga therapy and the Power of Prayer! I'm looking for any Positive messages. Insight or whatever anyone has to share . I believe in focusing on being positive, but I have never been so depressed as I have these last few years. Thank-you everyone and best of luck on your own journeys.... as I do feel we are all on a journey with this !