Hi all Spineys,
It has been a while since I have posted. It has now been 1 year since my direct pars repair surgery. I have definitely gone through complications as well as normal UPS and downs in my healing process. I am now in aqua therapy twice a week and four weeks ago started working 3 half days at work a week.
I guess I am having a bad week and even if no one replies to my post, it is nice to share to get the feelings out.
While my activity has increased, every time I do increase levels I go through major flare Ups that cause extreme pain.
I feel like i have been just surviving from one day to the next..... with that I feel like life is passing me by. I am very thankful that I have made it to this point, however, I have yet been able to walk more than quarter mile at a time as well as sit more than 3 hours at a time. I still have not been out to a restaurant to catch up with friends since my injury in December of 2013. That said, I have lost touch with my friends and feel like I cannot enjoy life. Hence, the depression sinks in at times when I'm in extreme pain.
How do you all get through it? I hate feeling like I am losing myself.... my life revolves around my injury and trying to heal from it. The progress is so slow that I am starting to come to terms with never really being able to get to normal again.
It is a difficult realization for a 38 year old that used to work out 6days a week.
Any words of encouragement are appreciated!
Bilateral pars defect L5