Thanks all for your supportive comments. It's difficult to explain the events that have accured in the past days. After 14 some odd years of the strongest pain meds known to all of us, they ruined my life. Today, it's a fantastic feeling of knowing who you are, what your doing. All these new sensations are worth every penny in the pot. waking up and your mouth is not glued together from all the meds, The taste of foods, regular BM,s knowing what the date is, simple things that we all enjoy. I realize that we need some sort of relief, but there comes a point where you become so dependent on meds to function somewhat. All I'm seeking is an honest answer and not a run-around. I'm sure your all pretty much familiar with that. Being new here, I'm sure where to post or so if someone could advise to such, that would be great. Again, my prayers go to all who suffer and hope that you'll find your answers to your own problems.