In !996 i was hit by a ford explorer going 65mph while i was a land Surveyor, after she slammed on her Brakes i was thrown 110 ft Getting a second and third Brain Injury. While i still tried to work for the next 12 years i could never hold a job for more than 6 months, when before i could keep a Job for 3 years. on Oct 2008 i finally understood i was Permanently disabled with Physical and Mental Disabilities, Including Chronic Transient Pain Coming From my Neck and Lower Back, Moving into my Left limbs. I have Fought to be Productive in my own life, some days i am in so much Pain i just want to sleep, on other days i move around ok, but that is really about all i can do. My Biggest thing is that now my pain medication isnt working that well anymore, but i dont want to get my doctor in trouble, and i Hate opiates, other than the relief they give me, I dont want to harm my doctor for trying to help me. He is a kind and good man and really cares for his patients. How can i ask for a greater dose and possibly have the DEA go after a Family man, and a great Doctor.
So it seems that my only alternative is to Take the Meds only When i need them, and not all the time, even when my pain is to great. only take them when i need to function. its frustrating when people pretend to have Pain for the High, and those of us that truly hurt are scared to ask for a higher dose because it could effect our loving Doctors. I have never really liked Drugs, I Hate Being out of control, or what people call HIGH. I just want to live my life without this horrible Dull Hollow, Sharp in some Area's Pain. Its why i am depressed, because i feel less than human. I cant play with my Children, I couldn't throw a Ball with my sons, the only thing i could do with them was Video Games, it makes me feel Incomplete. I was a Very active person before i was hit, but now i am Overweight and cant exercise except for swimming.
Sick of Pain, But Hate Opiates, Hate Being High, Loves Everyone.