I was referred to a dual pain management / neurologist to talk about why my pain levels are so intense and have such an adverse effect. He has officially diagnosed me with central pain syndrome from spinal cord injury and possible CRPS after seeing a picture of my foot swollen and skin damaged that I need to be monitored for but since it's been so many years the trophic changes are not as obvious. I am officially in pain management the rest of my life as meds are really only option and no cure and will be worked up with strong neurological meds and narcotics in future to control the pain. its considered intractable now.
I am beyond let down since this means the current job I work ismt really an option any longer. I guess life doesn't care how hard you work. But I'm exhausted beyond measure and the toll the last 4 years have taken on my life are just overwhelming so I accept this defeat for now. Everything I did in school was to reclaim my life and stay out of surgury and pain meds. In the end it didn't matter, that I beat it all when just around the corner lived the hardest thing I would ever experience. It's a sad, sad day for me. Disappointed in medical field that could have possibly prevented it from getting here if they listened early on instead of saying its in my head, disappointed in my family for thinking I was a hypochondriac even though I never have been in my life, disappointed in myself for not being able to beat this. Just plain disappointed that no matter how hard I work I won't beat this. Part of me is in denial , but I know it's the only explanation that can explain this level of pain that feels like a cold metal piece is pressing on an exposed nerve all over your right side of body, along with tremors and spasms that never end.
I used to want my life back , but I would settle for peace and less suffering.
Do your due dilegence, trust you know your body and question everything if it does not fit. Advocate for yourself and you will be suprised what will be revealed trusting your body and instinct.