I'm having microD in 4 weeks and feeling so scared. Had the same surgery to same disc 3/4years ago and it was actually horrendous. I was in hospital for a week & in agony for 2 weeks and on oxycontin for 3 months afterwards. I thought it would be easier if I ever had to go through it again, but second time feels more terrifying knowing what is coming. I've read so many stories from people on here of being ok after a few weeks/months & it seems so far away from the experience I had.
I have anxieties about what happens if something goes wrong, how long it will be until I feel better & how will the rest of my life look after the surgery and I would say that I'm generally quite positive and working from home in bed up until my surgery. I want to stay strong but some days it is so hard to feel happy and sleep at night with all the anxieties (and sciatic pain!). I guess I just wanted to come on here and share my thoughts with someone other than my fiancee - who has heard about my pain for so long, but been the most wonderful person I could wish to have around. There's also the fear that he may leave and want to be with someone who doesn't (we've been together for 5 years since we were 23 and I've had chronic pain for 3!). But he's stuck by me so far (and asked me to marry him so I guess that helps reduce my fear there!).
Do other people have these same thoughts?