For the passed couple of days, I've definitely felt as if I've been getting a UTI (urinary tract infection). I don't really have a primary care doctor, just the Osteopath that I see for my back and he is more of a pain doctor than a PCP. I knew that Walgreens had just opened up some of those little clinics that you can go to for minor ailments, and since I'm an employee I thought I would check it out. There isn't one in my store, but there is one in a store near where I live.
They always ask you about medications, conditions, etc. And when she got me talking about my pain, etc, I totally lost it and started crying uncontrollably. I was so embarrased. She wants me to go see someone, and she thinks I need an antidepressant. I've always been a cryer, and with the infection I just haven't been feeling all that hot anyway, and when I don't feel good I always get emotional. The thing is, I don't think I am depressed in the clinical sense, but maybe I am...for as long as I remember, every few months or so I kind of have a breakdown, cry a little, and get over it. I've honestly thought that I've been getting better, both physically and mentally, because I've been a lot more active physically and even a little bit more social.
I hate having to make appointments and stuff, it is enough to have to see my DO. I don't want my life to be run by doctors. The last time I thought I might need an antidepressant I totally chickened out and didn't even bring it up when I went to the doctor- because, like I said, these feelings always pass, and by the time time I can get an appointment, I just don't feel that way anymore. It's not that I'm embarrased, I work in a pharmacy and antidepressants are truly one of the most prescribed drugs around - my mom takes several, as do a lot of other people I know.
I know that it will happen again if I find a PCP, you can't get in for like a week, because it's not urgent, I don't have suicidal thoughts or anything.
Just not sure what I should do, I really don't have all that much money to be throwing around on non-urgent appointments. And I really don't want to go anyway, the side effects of these drugs are pretty bad, and I'm not sure that I want to play the dose adjusting game, I feel like I've been there and done that with the pain meds, and I certainly don't need anything to help me sleep, I've always slept like a baby, even with the pain. Again, I'm just not sure what I should do...