I want to open this up as gently as I can.
You are here.
What you were..is over there.
Wanting your old life back can be counter productive to who your going to be.
Dont get all riled up.
Some of you will get surgery or a treatment and be free of this onus..and none are happier than me to read or hear of one of us Spineys who got out!
Some through time,and diligence will also make good on the promise to get back to " normal"
Here is the hard part..and i hate to say it
But some will not be able to return to a normal style amd mode of life.
I have been there
Trying with increasingly diminishing returns.
Body Building...strength training..
Bike riding 70 miles a week and working up to a 100 plus..so that i could ride a small marathon from Austin Tx to Corpus Christi..and small races here
A small fortune spent on supplementation to facilitate all this
School, work, social life.
All gone in an instant.
Fell off 18 Wheeler 92
Fell off 18 Wheeler 96
MVA 99..The big one...
Fell off 18 Wheeler 04
drove for 20 years..pushing..pushing pushing
Workin 2 jobs in the naughtys
Forced into retirement by W/C in 05
I know where you been
I did all that to maintain what i thought was important..a lifestyle.
The damage from that is extensive and permanently degenerative.
Its your job now to think..really thing on your future quality of life.
Do you want to keep hurting yourself in order to gratify vanity?
I realise life must be lived...bills, family..obligations...
But this is your life..
In the final cut
What is important?
Your peace of mind
A quiet heart.
These will get you through the tough times.
I wished long and hard
Struggled with ego over wishing, wanting and not getting back to where i was..that "paradise"
Really..it wasnt. I only see it that way because of rose lenses..
What do you think?