Had this lumbar surgery in Germany I am almost 1 year post op. I am still in a constant head -- some days feeling pretty good, then others feeling terrible. My spouse is on the edge of leaving me i think she cant handle knowing she may be my caretaker fir long term if i do t improve. I started back to work 6 months ago but i am not able to keep physically working for much longer. I make very good money but i know i cant physically continue the work or i will break down. I know i need to take a break or my back will continue to regress and get worse and worse. I feel like my choice is ejther stop working and take care of my back but drive my wife to the edge of leaving... Or, keep trying to work and my back for sure will get worse which will still in turn, eventually drive my spouse away because fhen she will have to be the breadwinner. I dont think she can understand that i simply physically cannot do the job right niw...and it is embarrasing for me--a person who prides myself on my job and the fact that ive always been a top producer. Any advice or similar circumstances would be appreciated. Help, i love my wife very, very much ... cant she just see im doing my best??