I feel like i am in a big lake treading water and i am starting to give out. I have been hurt since the end of may and now my IC has decided they arent going to cover me seeing my dr anymore. They dont agree with him on that i should be off work totally. I cant help what they believe. All i know is i am tired of hurting. It effects EVERY part of my life. My marriage is strained because my husband feels that it is him why we arent intimate. IT isnt. IT is the pain. I dont think there is a time when some part of my body isnt hurting. between my arm, shoulder, wrist, hand, fingers, neck, upper and lower back and my legs somthing is always hurting. I am worried that i will be like this for the rest of my life. We cant get me the treatment i need because of my company saying NO. how flippin fair is that?! To stop my treatment dead stop. I cant get my pain meds or anything. I cant see another dr because no one will see me because it is an open workers comp case. I dont know how much i have left in me to fight all this. We cant even get more testing done! I have to see their doc, which isnt a problem on the 31st it will take till mid august to get those reports back. I dont see how the company can legally stop my treatment. I dont care about the money or whatever right now, all i want is my life back! To be able to sleep in my bed, heck to be able to sleep thru the night, to be able to take care of my home, to drive or ride more than 30 miles without being in excruciating pain! To be a wife to my husband. I pray daily for strength. I am just so tired. and no where to turn it seems.