I am a 49 year old female and have suffered with low back pain for 13 years now. I was injured at work when I twisted my back trying to catch a heavy rack full of clothes. The first year was agonzing lumbar pain.
Tried epidural injections, pt, chiropractic, but with no relief. Gradually after a year the pain got better, but is always there limiting me from standing for very long, or walking more that maybe 50yards without pain. I learned to deal with it and the pain became manageable. MRIs I had showed no real problems. Then in May 2008 my husband and I were hurrying around trying to get our house ready for new carpet. I lifted furniture that I shouldn't have, spent 3 hours mowing the lawn with a push mower. I hadn't mowed the lawn in over 15 years, but was trying to help my husband out because he had been working tons of overtime and just didn't get to it. I just really overdid it, but assumed that I'd be better the next day. Well, I woke up in intense pain 2 days after all the work and have been in misery every since. I have cervical, thoracic, and lumbar pain in all 3 areas. It's been 3 months and I have gotten no relief. I was trying to work and would end up sitting in my car over the lunch hour crying because the pain was so bad. Ice is the only thing that helps the pain. I had another MRI which showed some mild disc bulging in the neck and thoracic area, also facet artheritis in the lumbar area.
But, I don't think anything showed up that the doctors think should
be causing this much pain. I finally took a leave of a
absence from work because I cannot deal with customer on a
day to day basis in this much pain. It's so strange because
I am so lonely, but don't want to be around my friends or
family members because it takes so much energy not to complain or show the pain. I feel like I don't want to
expose them to my real pain. I feel very vunerable and
think I might lose my friends if I complain about the pain.
No one wants to be around someone is constant pain who is
unable to focus on anything but the pain. I feel suicidal
and this terrifies me because as of late all I can do is try to think of ways to die. I feel so sorry for my husband and my son because I don't want to put them thru the grief and trama of my suicide, but just don't know how
to cope with this hopeless situation. I am so scared that
I will not survive this. My doctor doesn't believe much in
pain medicine unless there is clincial evidence of the pain.
Since my MRI only shows some mild disc bulging and some moderate stenosis he doesn't want to give me pain meds. I
went to Physical therapy again, but it didn't semm to help. I feel like I am getting worse everyday. I did finally convince my doctor to give me vicodin for the pain
but he only gives me 30 tablet and that has to last me a month. I am going to the hospital this Wednesday for epidural injections for the pain. Thanks to everyone for
listening. I am sorry to go on so.