I will be the first to admit that being young and in considerable pain day in and day out takes its toll on your personality and quality of life. Compound this with other personal struggles and it is almost too much to bear. I want to write this as a lesson I learned recently. My pain and family problems elevated my depression to a level where I attempted suicide twice in a matter of weeks. Yes I did get help and no the situation at home did not get better in fact I am now a single dad (she found someone new and "healthy") my pay was cut drastically and it looked hopeless. What I took away from all of this is ask for help I did not until it was almost too late and while I have my trials and troubles I can deal with them in a healthy manner. Somedays we spend so much time focusing on the bad that we do not see the good our lives have for us no matter how small that one thing is. Hold onto life cherish the good moments no matter how short or pain free (tolerable) they are. I write this because I know I am not the only one here that has had these thoughts cross their minds and from a survivor i am here to tell you this is so not the right path to take yes it may be easy but the pain you are in is minimal to the pain you will leave behind. I do not want to come across preachy or pointing fingers it is not my intention I just want to say from my point of view it does get better we may just not see it today.
You can kick a dead horse all day long but at the end of the day he's still dead.
Recovering from cervical fusion C5, C6, C7 December 09 and ruptured L5-S1 with Cauda Equina September 09
Neurostimulator implanted November 10 and liking it.
Finding out how if I am having lumbar fusion soon fingers crossed!
Thank you for maintaining your strength and clear "Focus". You are not alone in this journey of pain, problems, and loss of spouses - girlfriends to our spinal issues. I amire your not taking the "easy" way out.
I/We are here for you. Feel frre to PM me and we can trade notes/shoulders ... and share shoulders if/when needed.
Warmest Holiday Regards,
Dave
...of you to even think of us..think of others...and share your most vulnerable thoughts.
It is so good you were unsuccessful in your attempts and you are still posting to add to the quality of our lives.
I know those thoughts have taken up residency in my mind...so you are not being preachy...but have touched me with much more to think about.
It may be a bit more lonely a road for you...but it sounds like you have a kind of peace about it. It's not always easy...but I so agree...life is a little easier when we pay attention to the blessings..little or big..through out our day.
Thanks and hope you have a pain controlled day.
My profile lists my spinal issues and other conditions that I navigate around daily.
Doing my best to be getting around and hanging on to this ride called life!
I found this forum after my accident and it became a place I could learn and sympathize with others in my situation or similar. I would honestly say that never in my lifetime would I have ever seen myself at that breaking point in my life. Today I look at things through clearer eyes with my focus on my kids and moving on. The pain will always be with me but I could always have it so much worse. As the holidays approach I know many suffer from depression and anxiety and if my experiences can help just one person through a bad time in their lives that is what I wish for.
You can kick a dead horse all day long but at the end of the day he's still dead.
Recovering from cervical fusion C5, C6, C7 December 09 and ruptured L5-S1 with Cauda Equina September 09
Neurostimulator implanted November 10 and liking it.
Finding out how if I am having lumbar fusion soon fingers crossed!